Hubuduh What?

just a little freakout... don't fret
2006-10-13 : 12:49 pm

Attention Grown-Ups Who Read This:

PLEASE TELL ME IT GETS BETTER! PLEASE TELL ME THERE WILL BE A TIME IN MY LIFE WHEN I WON'T CHECK MY BALANCE TO FIND $3.11! PLEASE TELL ME THERE WILL BE A TIME IN MY LIFE WHEN I WILL FEEL HAPPY AND FULFILLED IN MY JOB AND I WILL HAVE ENOUGH BETWEEN PAYCHECKS TO CARRY ME THROUGH AND ALLOW ME TO WRITE ALL THE CHECKS I NEED TO TO KEEP AFLOAT! PLEASE TELL ME I WON'T HAVE TO MAKE THAT DECISION EVERY MONTH, WHICH BILL WILL BE LATE THIS MONTH! PLEASE TELL ME THERE WILL COME A TIME IN MY LIFE WHEN I CAN BUY A PAIR OF JEANS AND THEN NOT GET PUNISHED FOR IT FOR 3 MONTHS!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Speaking of jeans, I can return those jeans. I don't really need them and I can return that hair crap I never use.

I need to sell my car as soon as possible.

See, I had it all worked out. I was going to give just five (5) tests before the 15th of the month, which would have given me exactly enough to pay for everything I needed to pay for and then give me some money for Vegas. But then that chick in Amsterdam or wherever the hell these people are had to go "On Holiday" and since the five (5) tests were dependent on her I won't be able to give them for at LEAST another week OR TWO OR THREE which won't give me that $500 (or the subsequent $1000) until AFTER I so desperately need it.

It would all make sense if I actually explained it, trust. Point is I was screwed by timing.

Sigh, fortunately I do believe everything works out. Even if I'm freaking out now (and you're welcome for being given the opportunity to witness that freakout), I understand that the freakout will last a couple hours, then I'll scrap together a lunch from whatever is in my company's snack cupboard (why oh why is it not spelled cubbard or pronounced cup board?) I'll listen to some Otis Redding and realize that it really is all going to be fine. I just want a time when the freakouts don't actually happen.

I have a headache.

Thanks, Vi, for that *$ gift cert. You give me New England Blend and Green Ginger Tea and for that I am eternally grateful. I bow to you.