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rhapsody in blue
2006-06-23 : 2:58 pm

I had one of those moments this morning. The moments we all live for. You know how every once in a while you realize that everything is cool, you find yourself suddenly in a situation where everything is really great and you're happy? And you know it? I mean, so often we're perfectly content and happy, but we're so busy we don't realize it. But every once in a while there's this flash of self-realization where you're like "Hey! Wow, this is perfect! Just enjoy it!" and you do.

I had one of those moments today. It was great. I'm walking down the street in the city I love and which is now my home, that in itself is such a dream realized. That in itself makes me happy all the time. I've wanted to live here my whole life and here I finally am. I have coffee in my hand, I have a boy who I'm really into and who is really into me, my job is busy but good, I love my new apartment, it's sunny and warm, my hair looks GREAT today, I'm wearing a really great new shirt that I love and I feel really cute in it and one of my favorite summer songs comes on my iPod. For the first time in years I'm right where I want to be. I just walked down the street smiling to myself, realizing how perfect the moment was and then just living in it.

Granted, later I was out getting my lunch and got caught in the hardest rain I've ever seen and now I'm sitting in wet jeans for the rest of the day, but it's alright. Because I'm here and I'm happy.

So I live here now, in Boston. I love it. My apartment is pretty cool (not temperature-wise, mind you. It's really fucking hot, but I have AC) if old and falling apart, my roommates are cool (except the one, but I don't really pay much attn to him). I have my own, very small but workable space. A space with potential. There is an apartment cat, which, if you know me you know this wouldn't be a good thing, except that this cat is AWESOME and I totally love him. I'm living with a friend of mine, we have nothing but fun together. It's a safe and beautiful neighborhood, close to two T lines and one really excellent independent movie theatre. There are coffee shops and restaurants all around and, having left my car up in NH, I don't ever have to worry about driving home.

Now, normally I would totally understand if you want to puke by reading this, however I am never this lucky and happy, so I am taking it and swimming in it until it dries up. Happiness and contentment, it seems, is really quite fleeting and I feel blessed to be able to recognize it while I have it.

Meanwhile, I'm busy beyond recognition and I miss updating. But I'm still reading all you fine folks!